Not much to say here but the title.
Had a hard time leaving the house yesterday. Brain was everywhere and no where. My heart beat hard and hands shook. All the while, I knew I was having some kind of over reaction about nothing, but knowing that didn’t help. It still happened.
I paced around and knew I needed to leave and get things done, but the idea of it scared me.
I’m so messed up. There are layers under my layers that are not in sync, leaving my shattered self striving for unity while not understanding what all the layers are doing to just mess with the life I think I have.
Not sure I have a life, whatever that means.
It just sucks, and I need to try again today, and the thought alone makes me aware of my beating heart. This so sucks.