I\u2019m still amazed how easy it is for someone I don\u2019t know to crush my hopes and dreams. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As much as I want to be stronger, to move passed it all, to not let them define me, it still hurts, like way more than it should. But who defines \u201cshould\u201d?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Even people who claim they want to help, claim they want to hear more, they don\u2019t. They never did. They don\u2019t want to help, they want to do something for themselves because they only \u201chelp\u201d in a manner they want to do. For example, when people say \u201cthoughts and prayers\u201d. See, they don\u2019t actually want to put forth any effort; heck, they\u2019ll likely not think of it again. Lose your jobs, they won\u2019t actually help you find a new job unless it benefits them, they\u2019ll just tell you to stay positive. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I heard a phrase this week, \u201cBe ready when your best friend betrays you.\u201d I want to say it was attributed to a Mitch Horowitz. I know nothing about the guy, but that phrase rings true. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Everyone I\u2019ve ever looked up to has disappointed. Maybe I too have disappointed others, but no one should ever look up to me. I\u2019m a failed, broke human. I\u2019ve made so many mistakes and have so many regrets, I just wish it would stop. And I so often want to give up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just when I think I can have honest conversations, I\u2019m shut down, rejected, kicked to the curb. Just another reminder to add to the pile that tells me I will never be good enough for anyone. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to be better than this, but I\u2019m not. Just another victim in a society that thrives on crushing other people as long as the one doing the crushing gets to make themself appear better. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m so sick and tired of it all. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019m still amazed how easy it is for someone I don\u2019t know to crush my hopes and dreams. As much as I want to be stronger, to move passed it all, to not let them define me, it still hurts, like way more than it should. But who defines \u201cshould\u201d? Even people who claim they […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":815,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-816","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-random"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/08\/img_2827.jpeg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/816","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=816"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/816\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":817,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/816\/revisions\/817"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/815"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=816"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=816"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thedragoncorps.com\/musings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=816"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}